Alive…

but barely breathing…

Alcohol                                                not enough money

Weed                                                 living at moms

Coke                                                   dad finally called….but it wasnt to tell me he has a child on the way…

Pills….

Women troubles

No sleep

no friends

shitty job new job

quit chipotle

all the things that my life  seems to be as for these past few month. I really dont have the time to sit and get into detail…we’ll just leave it at..as far as I know brooke is in fl with tiff…alyda is leave for florida tomorrow to be with tiff ad is telling her she loves her again…brother is fucking amy..(my ex)…I have officially decided that if i find nothing to keep me her by april…(tax season) this coming year im going to leave for Arizona…im miserable here..as much as I play it off im pretty much fucking miserable…theres only one things that has beenablwe to keep mymind off of things……….and it isnt any of the drugs…im not exactly doing as bad as is sounds…maybe idk atleast writting it makes it sound worse then it really is…idk its jus alot…

d.j