Miserable since she left

It’s been a few days, and they have been some crazy few days.

I’ll start with Sat. Saturday Alyda was suppose to perform at the Agora and didn’t becaus D  was treating Alyda like shit. So we went out to dinner insted talked about some shit. I suppose I have alot of changes to make concidering she almost dumped me. We’ll put it this way, I didnt cheated physically, but i might as well of. I haven’t talked to stac since.

Sunday Alyda left for columbus and I have been miserable since. I really can’t wait til she comes and getsme I need her being here with Bridgette is more complicated then I had thought. I really miss her and want to spend the holidays with my women. I hate being apart from her esp when i kno shes soo far away…I feel like my hearts broken.  🙁

Work is good, except I’m burning the hell out of my forearms. It’s redic how many burns I have. Isai walked out last night so I had to run grill on my own even though it was only my second day back there. I did pretty damn good if u ask me. I ended up switching to line because we started to fall behind. So i closed out line yesterday, made decent tips. Over all it was a good night at work. I get paid on Thurs instead of friday, just becuase friday is christmas.  I smoked with Brookes last night after work, and I dont know if Bridgette was mad at me, or what but she wouldnt talked to me fer a min. Showered went to bed and enver woke me up this morning for the Doc app. I love her to death, but I’m not one of her kids. I feel like I havea  curfew and cant go any wher eafter work I have to head straight back here.

I have had shit tons on my mind probaly why I havent written in a few days. I dont have the time or thought process to write all my thoughts down now. I really rather not be sitting here on the computer when bridgette gets home. She seems to get pissy about it. I dont know, plus on top of it all…..The "disease" seems its going to start soon.

I needa a fucking car, a damn paycheck and a fucking cell phone.

 Just found out my dad was in the hospital again last night for his back, he wasnt moving his legs. He had surgery from 7am til 5pm….marry fucking christmas right. I know I shouldnt care but I do, he’s my father.

D.j