Home, Holiday, Happiness

Once again, its been ages since i managed to squeek in an entry or 2, and if i possessed the erudition to make up a good excuse, well, i would have written it by this point. Sadly, the true answer is mingled somewhere between studying like a fool for finals, drinking myself into oblivion, steering my way home to the luscious land that is Pennsyvlania, and finally capturing the essence that is christmas-gift shopping.

All that being said, its been a wild ride over the past week, and i’ll try my best to recapture the moments as best i can, being that its rather delayed, and likewise, rather distant.

First: One of my friends had a rare moment, and in a way few can imagine or appreciate, complimented me in an extraordinary, truly season-worthly way. It happened something like this:

There we were sitting around, chit-chatting while "out on the town" the various vultures known as law students blotting out the scene. My boys and i, sitting around, enjoying the drink, fun and festivities. And then ( i was kinda daydreaming when it happened) one of le vultures said something particularly menacing about yours-truly, and one of my friends, in a quick, and violent retort, stared directly at the fool who said it and replied"don’t you ever say something like that about E while in my presence. that man has more moral character in his little finger than you, or anyone has in their entire body." It was said with such menace the fool apologized….i shrugged of course…since its not like i actually paid attention to what was being said anyway. Still, good times.

Second: I had a night out with T, the girl i met 1st year who worked in admissions. We had a number of interesting(and fun) experiences, and conversations, but interestingly it turned to that realm of E and his relationship status, and E and "what do you look for in a girl." Perhaps i’m misreading, perhaps its my hubris talking, but i think she has a crush on me. In fact, she even asked why "im not more active in my pursuit of women." Which, in general, is a truth. Of course, it takes one of two things to change that. One, if the girl reall stirs my soul, ill unleash and "go for it." otherwise, i’m a slave to the girl who strikes first, who takes initiative, and thus, its just such a turn on when i girl make a move on me….once in a while.

-This reminds me of B, back when we first started dating, sophomore year of college. We were in gym class (tennis to be exact) and she was my tennis partner (we ended up getting 1st place)…and one day, during a routine class, she points and says "c’mere E, i need your help" and walked into the equipment room. Puzzled and clueless as i always am, i walked in, she grabbed me, kissed me for the first time, and i was truly utterly lovestruck….ah, even recalling that moment now, makes me smile like few others. For all her devil-ness, B sure did make my head swim.

Third, i had one of those "unbelievable" moments on my flight home. Now when i say that, i dont mean a good moment, rather, just one of those moments that i cant believe really happened. It went something like this:

I walk through the metal detector thing at the airport; i beep. I get an indignant look from the guard, and i mutter "ah its my belt." and move to take it off. "Sir! Sir!" he exclaims…"Stop.!" So i stop. He takes the "wand" thing, and wands me…and lo, my belt beeps. So, i smirk and say "can i take my belt off now?" "Yes, take it off." So i do, and i hold it out. "Woah, Sir! Sir!. Place that belt on the x ray machine." —so i do, and i walk through unscathed. Ah, so i figure the ordeal is over, and i begin to dress back up…"Sir, what gate are you going out of?" So…i look, a bit puzzled (why the hell are they asking me) and i check, and mutter "A12"….the guy turns and says "their is a barber shop on the way, i suggest you use it." -I wanted to hit that f–ker, or at the least, tell him to F off. Of course, i realized that would have gotten me detained, and i most likely would have missed my fight, so i weighed the factors, and simply kept walking. Still, i can’t believe that happened. Like….what kind of an ass would say something like that.

Fourth: Once i finally made it home, had my well-missed dinner at Isaac’s, i returned to my ol’ room, and looked upon my ol’ computer, (from college and florida) and decided to turn it on, just to check it out. First thing i noticed, my cousin had been on their; he changed the wallpaper…i’m gonna get him when he comes into town tommorrow. But more important, i found a cute, laughable drunk IM conversation between the infamous S, and myself, which occured on august 10, 2001:

S: where is D?

E: at home

S: i have to tell her what a great person she is

E: well, call her at home.

S: i cant its too late

S: i love her so much

E: oh christ, are you on X?

S: noooooooo

S: im just allittle drunk

S: but thats okay

E: damn, i was hoping to get lucky with you finally

E: *laughs*

S: lol

S: so how are you up there?

E:doing ok

S: are you sure?

E: finishing a paper, but, surviving

E: yeah

E: I don’t have any hot chicks

S: i really do miss you

E: but, yanno, morristown is a nice place

E: i know

E: i miss you too

S: you need to come back E

E: i cant

S: its not gonna be the same wihtout you

S: why did you have to leave?

E: um, well, fsu kinda kicked me out

E: 😛

S: but people are more important than that

S: and you are soo great

E: well, then move here

E: jers beats fl!

E: u know it

S: but i dont have the money

S: i would in a second and you know it

S: you need to be here E

E: u have the money

E: its only 150 bucks!

S: E you need to be here!

S: !!!!!

E: lol

E: well, ill be there, in a few weeks

S: really?

S: are you really gonna be here?

E: yes, for halloween horror nights

S: yeah!!!!

S: do you promise?

E: then i can sneak you away in the house of mirrors

E: *licks his lips*

E: lol

S: lol…..

E: yes i promies

E: promise even

E: well, at least about the visiting part

E: hehe

S: i know im not in my right mind but i really do miss yiu

S: you

E: aw

E: well, thank you dear, i miss you too

S: i know know im not gonna be able to stand it in tally without you

S: and thats the truth

S: nothing is right without you here

E: aw

E: you have terry

S: i dont want terry

E: he’ll help you stand it…or lie it…whichever

E: laughs

E: haha, woah, woah, woah

E: why not, i thought u love him?

S: no no no

E: aw

S: terry is just "there" ya know

E: yeah, i understand

E: ha, u acted interested though, *wink*

S: i can’t believe im even sayiing this but its true

S: and i don’t care if youi you

care or not but its the truth

E: *blinks* and just what are u saying over there, lil S?

E: *nudge*

S: i don’t know what the fuck im saying but whatever it is its the fucking truth

E: lol

S: thats all i really know right now

E: on your priceless

E: *pats your head*

S: come backpllleeaaasseeeee

E:i promise though, i’ll come visit

S: !!!!!!!!

S:nothing is real without you here

S: and i mean that

S: i swear

E: aw

S: i dont even want to be here where i am right now

E: oh, why is that?

S: it just doesnt feel right

S: and i am not trying to ruin things with you and D couse i would never want to do that but

E: well, first of all, we don’t go out anymore

S: this is the only time i can be truthful with you

E: she called me her x today

S: really?

E: i understand, u lil drunkard

E: *winks* and yes

S: lol….im sorry

S: but i really do miss you

S: i dont care if you believe me or not

E: i know S, i miss you too

E: i still have your card

S: really?

E: its sitting on my computer desk

S: 🙂

S: you are sooooo great

S: 🙂

S: and i mean that

S: really

E: hehe, ok

E: and thanks

S: i’m going crazy E

S: and i cant find the z buttone

E: lol

S: uhhhh…..

E: why are you going crazy?

S: my life is a reck

E: hrm

E: why do you think that?

E: tell me whats upsetting you so

S: cause yoiu are all i have known for the past two months and its just not gonnna be that same ya know?

E: yeah, i know

E: that does suck

S: yeah it does

S: why?

S: why did you have to leave?

S: why

S: its not fair

E: well, they made me

E: i cant not go to school its just not me

E: and besides, i dont belong in the south

E: florida doesnt lov em

E: e

E: i have to say, you type well while drunk

E: *laughs*

S: i really did care about you, and i dont care what anyone thinks about it

S: lol…i try

E: well, i care about you too

E: *nudge*

S: come back

S: plleeaassseee

E: i will, i promise

S: and i swear im not fucking with you either

E: i believe you

E: *poke*

S: i’ve spent so much time being jealous and im sick of it

E: aw

S: the only reason i even tried to be with terry was to be closer to you, i dont know how eell it work but thats why

S: i feel like such a dumbass

S: and i dont want to hurt Danielle either but its true

S: i just think youiu are so great

E: aw, well, you know i feel the same way about you

E: even though you wouldnt go out to eat with me

E; 😛

E: *laughs*

S: im really sorry about telling you all this but i just needed to

E: ha, don’t be sorry

E: im glad your telling me

S: really?

E: yeah

S: are you being serious?

E: course

S: please don’t tell terry this even though it really doesnt matter to me now

S: i really do miss you a lot

S: god i feel like an ass

S: 🙁

S: do you believe what im saying?

S: cause its true E

E: aw

E: i believe you

E: and dont worry, i wont tell the redhead

S: really, do youi?

S: lol….

E: you can still get yo’ groove on

E: *laughs*

S: not i dont think i wiillll get in on anymore

E: aw

S: do you believe what i am telling you

E: ha, should I?

E: i want to, thats for sure

S: cause it is te gods honest truth

E: but, we know what i think of you *wink*

S: i really do

E: well, then i do

S: im not fucking around either

S: i want yoiu to know that

E: i know

S: please don’t say anything to D cause i cant imagine what it would do to her but i had to tell you

E; oh dont worry, i wont

S: promise?

E: yeah

S: okay 🙂

S: and i promise im not just say ing this because im allittel tipsy

E: lol, ok

S: i really do care about you jon

E: aw, i care about you too

S: awww, come back

S: pllleeaaaasseeee

S: i need you here

S: as much of an ass as youi are i really do

S: lol

S: hahahahaha

E: haha

S: do youi belive me

S: i hope you do

E: that you love my ass, oh definitely

E: *winks*

E* or ass-ness….whichever

E: *laughs*

S: cause im being soooo fucking honest right now you just dont know

E: well, thats good, you should be honest. it makes things easier

E: and better

S: i know

E: and more likely you get what you want

E: *wink*

S: i hope your not just laughing at me and thinking that i m stupid

E: no, im not

S: really?

E: yes, really. hehe

S: don’t laught at me

S 🙁

S: i got my pics back the other day, you look great

E: yay

E: i want to see our ghetto pic

S: yeah

S: i got that too

S: its sooooo funny

S: 🙂

S: ill send it to you when i get back to tally

E: yay

E: hehe

S: well i hope you give a shit that i just poured my heart and soul out to you

E; aw, i do

E: *hugs*

S: i really hope that you do

S: cause im telling you the truth

S: even the first tiime i met youi i knew it

S: and im not shitting yoiu either

E: ha, when u ignored me at D’s house?

E: and i harassed your leather pants

S: when?

E: *laughs*

S: yeah well, you’ve always been D’s so i figured i should just forget it

E: ha, u guys trade bfs all the time righ?

E: *laughs* kidding

S: lol….whatever

S: i whached a movie that other day and i thought about you

S: it was "return to paradise", that is such a great movie

S: god E i miss you

E: yeah, with vince!

E: good movie

E: aw, i miss you too

S: this is soooo fucking agrivating

S: i dont even know if i spelled that right but i do’nt care

S: i just want you to know

S: i think you should clone youself so everyone can have you

S: cause your just so great

S: god i feel like such a shit

S: i neve ment to start things with terry

S: really i didn’t

E: aw, i believe you

S: im soo sorry

S: i don’t know why i did that

S: i just hope you believe me

E: i believe you, its ok doll

E: *wink*

 

Some comments: (1) I never did go to halloween horror nights (i.e. return to florida) that year. (2) D came to visit shortly after, things didn’t go as well as we thought it would. (3) The infamous, original "M" snuck into the picture, and my life quickly spiraled in new directions. Even with D and i broken up, even when D and i don’t go out, S and i always chat in between…harmless fun, but most definitely fun. Those two are my girls, D and S, for all th

e madness, and no matter how much BS D puts me through, at least, in the back of my mind, i will always think about them; much like i think about B. That makes me smile so much, because S is the only girl who i’ve been friends with for years, who i never dated, and yet who i have moments captured that truly make me smile (like the one above.)

Ah, the memories that are stored here, the life, the world, the holidays. All of it, is so beautiful.

Merry Christmas everyone.

Oodles o’ love,

Erotique