Dreams

Amy,

I forgot to tell you about my dream this last night. I dreamt about Michael and the feels I used to have. We were talking and we walking around a place that felt like Berkeley/SF or his old place. It was very hippie vibe like he used to be. Then I lost him and as I was walking to meet up with him, I ran into a girl (I think she might have been an old friend) and she mentioned something like, “I want him” and I replied, you cant have him, hes mine…or I thought it. Anyways, as I walked away from her to catch up to Michael, I ran into my cousin Christian. He looked all goth. I smacked him on the way towards this building and doors as I past by, I recall we had a short convo (hey, I see you! or something like that) and as I kept walking toward up these stairs to the double doors, I flip him off and say, “You can’t go back, you can only go forward” and I woke up. That was such a deep ass message. I have to continue to remember that. I do tend to focus in the past and need to focus on the now and future.

Because Jaime and I are off balance, i did wake up feeling sad and struggling to move forward, but I’m working on keeping hope and faith. I know he loves me, I just hope its enough for us.