Liquid Lulls

Tense hands, waves and hugs, the quiet with which everyone approaches the reverent, considered words, meanings we intend lost into dozens of other words that we pass along, trying to say something for ourselves, for others and for another, counting minutes between instances, the tears that waited for better times, for their opportunity to be okay, lest another one of us break character and all we’re left with is us holding each other with shattered masks strewn about, no, some don’t know the depth of love that they’ve been given, it’s surprisingly difficult to imagine how another comprehends love, how it is manifested in them and through them, such vast differences, it can be extravagant like the staple point on which everything rests and expands, or simpler but perhaps muddled in warm feelings attached to thoughts of them, these things are rarely expressed.

I like it when I remember someone I know and I smile for doing so, I sort of see it as the unconscious mind agreeing with me, yes this person is special. Again there are so many ways to offer this individual abstract thought to one another. 

There are things we want, that we never ask for. If you’re ever with your lover, close friend or so forth put their head in your lap for them to use a pillow and run your fingers through their hair, you needn’t explain beforehand or even why or anything like that, just do it, I think there are a lot of people who would enjoy that, but they would never ask for it, there is a great deal out there to make most anyone happy, but often people are embarrassed about asking for it. So do a good thing and take control, do something you want but would never ask for to someone else. Even if it’s tiny, a bit of happiness is always valuable, to whomever receives it.

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November 6, 2010

Good thoughts. RYN: I’m generically a bit of a gearhead with a taste for light, nimble cars, so I suppose I’m an Integra fan; less so for the new Civic. The old Civic could make a case, I suppose.

November 6, 2010

RYN: Oh, and it most definitely wasn’t me, I assure you.

November 6, 2010

RYN: Yes..morphine would be totally GREAT! But, i would probably be knocked out for days..hahahaha. And yes..work can suck my…big toe. And, i will have to come back to your entry..too early in the morning to read 🙂 have a good day!

November 6, 2010

I like that idea. RYN I kind of feel like I don’t know enough about anything to have any opinions. And maybe it is because I have never really thought that my opinions would be worth anything. I don’t know.

November 6, 2010

This is wonderful. I adore the way you write.

November 6, 2010

RYN: … the science behind the orgasm is designed to elicit feelings of love and attachment… I agree, but would that emotional conveyance occur as intensely (if at all) in a one off, random encounter as say a regular friend over many encounters spaning months, if not years? Maybe if neither party ever had an orgasm it could last indefinitely. This I agree with, but that is what IÂ’d call friendship. My best friend and I started out by having sex, then we moved beyond that. So I definitely agree with that statement.

November 6, 2010

RYN: My concern is for my relationship with those I love. I am a wife and mother and I am afraid that I will end up unable to either exist in their lives fundamentally, or get so wrapped up in my misperceptions that I don’t see them as they are anymore. I am deeply concerned about becoming a burden on my family.

November 6, 2010

well…finally got to read this…and yes we all need to do something for someone…to onto others as you would want them to do for you. AND i would love for someone just to run their fingers through my hair…ahhh the simple things! 🙂

November 7, 2010

r: okay, so, your note was very sexy. haha. very accurate also. always important to appreciate the details.

November 8, 2010

r: astounding, i’m not sure. i guess it means he listens. in music response, have you heard sufjan stevens new album, the age of adz. it’s somewhat similar in a not similar way at all, haha. but it’s so far from his old stuff. definitely worth a listen. ‘impossible soul’ is the stand out song on it for me.

November 8, 2010

also, hannah is like that because she’s a good christian girl (yes, don’t say the obvious on that point, she’d be a lot smarter if she wasn’t). i think it’s just the age thing. ‘he’s very nice, emily’ she says, ‘but he’s 29… TWENTY NINE’. and my lack of response to that makes her fear for my smarts.

November 8, 2010

RYN: Thanks for the article. =]