All Alone. RejEcteD OmE.

Hey.

 I’m Here I assume. Here Are some random stuff.

– Mamaw went to the hospital today b/c she fell yesterday. She is ok. She brusied her side, she has 2 large gall stones, and a urinary tract infection.

– Mindy went to the doctor Monday. She had a sist and she may have diabetes. She has to go back in Nov. for a blood sample, since they couldn’t get any.

– I’ve been depressed on and off lately.  I dunno whats wrong with me, I’ve been staying sleepy as well.  I had a weird vivid dream when I took a 2 hour nap earlier. It was scary it was like I was really there, and yes I miss you.  

– Bleh. Work is alright I assume. Cindy took off 10 days for her legs. Her test came up with nothing.  I dunno whats wrong with her. It was quiet, but now the same stuff happens.

– Halloween is Saturday.  WoW!. I’m getting too old.

– Song of the day [The Way I’m Feeling.]:

Stabbing Westward – Wasted. 

I’ve spent my life running from the emptiness that haunts me
And I’ve spent my whole life trying to fuck the loneliness away
And I die inside when I think of all the people that I’ve damaged
I’m tired I’m so tired and there’s no one else except myself to blame

(chorus)
My life’s been wasted everything is gone
My life’s been wasted and I am all alone
My life’s been wasted there is no one else
My life’s been wasted it’s time I face myself

I’ve spent my life trapped inside a cycle of self-destruction
And I’ve spent my whole life trying to numb the pain inside my soul
Furious I cry when I realized I fought this war with no one
Now I’m tired I’m so fucking tired but I’ll find a way to keep my faith alive

(chorus)

When I reach the end will anything I’ve done mean anything
Now when I reach the end will anything I’ve done mean anything
Will anything I’ve done mean anything(x2)

My life’s been wasted everything is gone
My life’s been wasted now I am all alone
My life’s been wasted there is no one else
My life’s been wasted

My life’s been wasted everything is gone
My life’s been wasted and I am all alone
My life’s been wasted there is simply no one left
My life’s been wasted now it’s time I face myself