The aftermath

I didn’t think about after the IVF failed. Because it didn’t fail. The IVF succeeded. The pregnancy failed.

And today my period started. But it isn’t just any period…technically its a miscarriage. It was just an embryo, not a fetus, or a “real” baby yet. But it was our potential baby. And now our baby is just leaking out of me. And there is so much blood. And it hurts, because my body is trying to push out all these pieces of tissue. I can feel each one and each one is a reminder that our baby just dissolved inside of me into nothing.