Day Zero

Well it’s cold and wet. I have my window open in my bedroom and a smoke in my hand and i’m thinking about how hard the next few months will be. My first hurdle is trying to forget about my ex, for the time being and focusing on sorting out my life.

My second hurdle is deciding what things i need to change. Firstly my diet, getting fit and aiming for that body i want. I chose this first because i know that it’s physical as well as emotional. I figure if i feel good phsically i will have more chance dealing with the emotional issues. So lets start with that, my diet is not very well organised so ill be playing it as i go. All i know is that i need to burn the energy and reduce my fat/calorie/carb intake to a respectable level. Ive done it before i know i can do it again. Next comes smoking! Oh how hard that will be.

I would like to end this first entry by saying: I believe that you can turn to love to get you through this life, i believe that if you love someone you shouldn’t have to go through this life without them, i believe that doing this will make me better whatever the ending. I need something to work towards, some kind of motivation and now i have one.

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