Stalker

Last night after we got home, Courtney was sitting at the kitchen table doing her homework while I was making dinner. She got up for something & the phone rang – I checked the caller ID and it was her little friend Cason. I didn’t answer it, but she came running in and called him back immediately. They talked for just a minute or two, then she asked how to put the phone on speaker, so I showed her then they talked for a few minutes more. It was kind of cute listening to them talk.

After they were through, I decided to check the messages. I heard "You have 7 new messages." That seemed like alot but sometimes I go days without checking them, and I couldn’t really remember when I had checked them last. Then I heard "First message sent today at 4:45 pm". Uh – this was about 6:30 so 7 messages in 2 hours? Alot. OK, first message was: "Courtney, it’s me [Cason] I just want to talk to you about what happened today and I hope you still like me and we can do stuff together. Call me back."

Then I hear "Second message sent today at 4:47 pm" "Courtney, I really want to talk to you, please call me back ASAP"

"Third message sent today at 4:49 pm" "Hey baby, it’s me, I just want you to know I love you with all my heart and soul. Please call me back soon." [I about die]

"Fourth message sent today at 5:04 pm" "Hi Courtney it’s me. You said to call you but you aren’t picking up. Please call me back. Love you."

"Fifth message sent today at 5:15 pm" "Courtney it’s me I’ve been calling you but you haven’t called me back. Please call me back, I really want to talk to you."

"Sixth message sent today at 5:17 pm" "Baby, call me back, OK?"

"Seventh message sent today at 5:54 pm" "Courtney it’s me Cason I’ve been trying to call you for over an hour please call me back ok? Love you."

I was seriously feeling sick to my stomach. I went to find Courtney and I didn’t know what to approach first – the number of messages, the "love you with all my heart and soul" stuff, or the "what happened today" stuff. First I told her that Cason left her 7 messages, and I let her listen to some of them (on speaker, since she had reminded me we even had that — I had forgotten). She kind of rolled her eyes at the lovey stuff which I took as a good sign. I said "You might want to mention to Cason that your mom will hear the messages before you will." She said "I need to tell him I don’t get home til late on Mondays and Wednesdays so he won’t call so many times." So then I asked if something happened today. She said she had been trying to tell him something and she finally got it out of her (her phrasing) that day. I asked what it was and she said she wanted to tell him to cool it with the lovey talk and just be best best friends and do things together without being all in love. I was like "phew".

I of course had to ask if all the lovey talk meant he wanted to kiss her and she said no, it’s just the talk but she doesn’t like the talk. I teased her and said oh, you want the kissing? and she said ugh, no. (good).

Anyway I asked if he was mad or upset and she said no. Then I said "I don’t think the message got through though, judging by the messages he was leaving" and she rolled her eyes again. She said "I guess I will tell him again tomorrow."

I said that it didn’t sound like they had talked about anything important when they did talk on the phone, and she said "We did, before I put it on speaker."

I’m sure it is absolutely nothing to worry about, it was just a little freaky. He didn’t call at all tonight.

Her class had a field trip today, and I asked her who she sat with on the bus. She said Cason on the way there and Faith & Hannah on the way back. I asked how it happened that she sat with different people and she said kind of shortly "It just happened that way." So I don’t know if she & Cason had a falling-out or what. She did have a note in her folder that she was ignoring directions on the field trip; sometimes her bad behavior is because she’s excited and sometimes it’s because she’s mad about something else. I decided not to push it, I don’t want Cason to be the focus of everything.

I swear my head was spinning, it was like I could see the future and see me talking with her about sex etc. I kept thinking "Don’t screw this up, you are setting a precedent here." Talk about pressure!