Anxiety/Fear

I had a bad mania episode Friday with a bad down fall from it Sat night. This mania episode was really making me want to  smoke cause I was in fear/anxiety of having  the feeling that I was going to lose someone close to me. This feeling comes on from time to time and it used to be one of the times that would make me smoke more than usual. Well now that I cant smoke, the downfall from it caused a bad mood/fight with my man and I. We got through it as usal, but I hate it.

I went to the dr today for the first time since I quit smoking  he was happy to finally hear I did that. I did gain some weight, but he was so happy I quit smoking he didnt even bug me about the weight gain. I am starting to try to lose weight now too. I started finally going on walks. Took my puppy on a walk two days in a row. Yesterday we walked for 30 min, today we walked a little further and  a little longer. It makes my legs stiff and sore for a little bit after but the result will be good if i start losing weight.