I Quit Smoking

Well about a little over a month ago I got diagnosed with c.o.p.d.  That was very scary. Due to it though I did quit smoking. I have seen plenty of times what it does to ppl being that I have seen it nearly kill a loved one several times. As much as I hated to quit I figured it has been hard enough to see him go through it and having my 11 yr old daughter see him go through it, I figured it wasnt fair to have her see both of us go through it. It has been a little over 30 days. It has been years since I have not smoked for so long. Finally slowly starting to do better but some days are harder than others.

Other than that, I also had a couple nights of not sleeping so good again lately. I either have nightmares or just get really scared of one of my abusive ex’s coming back. The good thing about that though is its been getting me to get out more and hit more a.a mtgs again. I realized one day that when I do a night meeting, it usually calms my head down earlier at night and I sleep better.

Oh ya, also I am now the mother of a 18 yr old… That is just crazy. On top of that my baby will be 12 this month too… Thats just crazy..I cant believe how fast they r growing up.