Back to the Hospital

As if it wasnt bad enough me being in the E.R. the other day now my honey is back in the hospital with his C.O.P.D again.I had to call 911 for an ambulance last night and he told me this mornng that he would have rather have gotten a bag of dope then end up back in the hospital again. He said when he did dope he was breathing much better and was hardly having to be in the hospital. I just cant stand the thought of him relapsing. Its hard enough seeing him in pain and in the hospital but for him to relapse would be much worse.