30lbs…

 I have been complaining about the baby weight forEVER now. Since I started putting it on pretty much. And I know the doctor told me no exercise until Dec 28th, after my 6 week check up but it’s been depressing me badly and making my life a bit worse by looking at the fact I can’t even pull my pants up to my hips, let alone dream of closing them.  

I am considerable WIDER than I have ever been. My face is not too much fatter than usual but my boobs are freaking massive and my hips and thighs as well.  I know a lot of people have said I don’t look my weight but lets face it////I MUST look it.  I mean, I AM it, right??

Well, when I went to give birth I was 190. yep. almost a whopping 200lbs. At my 1 week postpartum I weighed 177. I have NO idea what I weigh now. But it’s probably right around the same. I have been watching what I eat. I decided that at 3.5 weeks post partum I MUST start doing SOMETHING about it, because nothing will change if I don’t.   I actually also am looking into slimfast. to help me get there a bit quicker.  Now, I had no problem with the weight when I was 140….I was quite happy and looked super slim and had abs etc. I think it was because I was a stripper and was always working out on the pole and in those high heels.  But the point is, I am not GAINING weight being the way I am…I just am not LOSING it. So I won’t have to worry about gaining it all back once I am at my goal, and I am not going to stop exercising either..quite the contrary. I will only be stepping it up, as I start to re work pole into my fitness again. That won’t be til about 8 weeks post partum tho, to ensure that all the stitching inside from my c section is healed, and that I can start strengthening my abs a bit before attempting that.   

I got on my treadmill tonight, and only did 20 minutes. But I did it on full incline and definitely was sweating and my heart rate was up when I got off of it. I would have stayed on at least 30-40 minutes but not only was I tired, it was 10:30 at night and I have people who live under me so I was trying to be considerate, since I don’t know how MUCH the sound will travel through the floor.

I took a little ribbon and wrapped it around my waist and marked where it met at the other end. i don’t have a scale so I will use the ribbon to measure any waistline loss in a few weeks, just to see if I maybe lost an inch ( i HOPE i HOPE)

Besides that, my mom and dad took Baby B overnight last night, and so me and Joe could go out to see the new Harry Potter movie. Love the movies, my inner child always has. Joe actually likes the movies too which surprised me.  Joe might be selling his turn tables tomorrow, for 500 bucks, which will pay off all our backed bills and clear our minds. He has not had any car insurance on his jeep, and so has been taking my car to work, but that has been leaving me immobile and stuck at home. I do get out to go tanning for 15 minutes, which is nice because I am nice and dark once again. Which is one step closer to feeling  like my old self. Now just 30lbs and I’ll be golden. wooo.