10/30/2010

 Missing the crazy life.

Was asked last night if anyone had eer done a line off my ass. Uhm, REALLY?! ?! Like thats going to get answered. lol. I suppose a handful of people will know that answer, and maybe thats not one of my PROUDEST moments, but I can say that I have definitely lived my life and not worried too much about what would happen. Those times felt great, but they don’t last forever. 

And I’m STILL tired of people who have never been in  that type of situation where they ever took a drug or some shit sitting back and telling me how I should have done things or how WRONG I was. If you have never done it, first off, you have no opinion here. Because you didn’t NEED to do it, you will say, makes you stronger than me. BULL. No one NEEDS to do a drug. Unless they are an addicted fool. And addiction comes from irresponsibility and misuse. Just like mcdonalds. Should a skinny person be told not to eat mcdonalds because of how many people it makes fat?? The fat people just go there too much and too often. Same as a drug user. While I understand also that a mcdouble doesn’t have shit in it that gives you the shakes or some shit if you DON’T eat it, its still the same standard that someone does go back, and its also not healthy for them.

People who are silly enough to use a drug irresponsibly were over confident to start, or gave in easily to something and were full aware what they were doing way before it came to be too late. trust me, I’ve seen it in people. A good friend of mine decided to try heroin, (stupid) and she decided that she liked it so much she would do it whenever she wanted. This was before she became hooked. She knew full well HOW MUCH she liked it, and continued to use and use and suddenly, her life was all about using. Now where is she? a junkie in JAIL where she rightfully belongs. But lets not compare all people who have tried a drug to that girl.

I mean, really, people who are recreational social drug users have their own category.  They don’t spend all their cash or time on getting coke, or weed, or ecstacy. They just do it when the time arises. I liked ecstacy because it was fun, I still had control of myself and actions, could think clearly, and didn’t end up puking my guts out or with a hangover.  I also knew how to be responsible and take care of myself while ON it. The only way people ever wind up hurt or dying from that shit is if they took too many, didnt stay hydrated, and/or didn’t know where the pill came from , who made it, and if something totally toxic was in it.  Thats why people should NEVER do drugs with strangers or buy from someone they don’t know.

I’m not condoning the use of drugs either, as those days are behind me, and for some people, they really just don’t know how to be safe and smart about using them. Argue with me not, because I’ll never change my mind about it. You will never know anything about it until you’ve been there, and you should never judge someone based on the fact that they have.