The power to forget.

Song : Bangles Following http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iQVisAsms6Y

I believe in the law of attraction,

I dream about Mark more then ever. I try almost every day not to think about him. But I do. I think about waking up with him. I think about kissing him, and I think about just being in love with him.

I see our life together and I think about the life I want wanted with him. But at the same time there are days where I am happy to not be with him..

I feel I will always love Mark, it’s sad how we ended and I want so much to forget about it… I DO feel that I have moved on, that I am READY to just not think about him.. and I couldn’t go back – BUT..yet I get this feeling. This feeling that I should be with him.

I think about how he’s moved on, and in all areas of my life I have moved on to. So why do I have these dreams?

I still get drawn back to him. In my dreams these dreams stay with me for days ….

I wonder if he dreams about me to, and if he thinks the same thing?

I also know that this sounds crazy, insane almost- like a stalker, like the start of some obsession – it’s not.

it more that when I think I about him, I wonder if it’s a sign  that I should talk to him.  That the reason I don’t forget about him is that I shouldn’t .. that I’m being told something.  That he was the one, and that he and I should be together.. and that deep down inside he feels the same.

But I live in the real world.. and the world where I left him because he cheated, he is now married with a child.  And I need to do the same.  

I have my answers = then why does my sub conscious betray me ?

I want to forget- all the good and all the bad and just walk towards the light