The Last Time I will talk about Ray. *edit
Dear Diary,
Here is a text conversation we had. He text me at 4:30am (he knew I would be at work).
("…" means I didn’t reply back)
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Ray – Hey! How’s it going?
Me- Im good. Why are you texting me at 430 in the morning?
Ray – Can’t sleep. Knew you’d be up. Thought I’d say hi.
Me – I’ve moved on. So should you.
Ray – Lol! You just told me that you weren’t dead and if I wanted you around to let you know. Just because we aren’t dating doesn’t mean I don’t want you in my life.
Me – I meant lunch or coffee. Not texting at 430 in the morning.
Ray – Why not? You’re awake.
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What’s wrong with texting at this time??
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Furthermore even if we’re dating other people, we should still be able to talk.
Me – Yes. We should. Only you dont feel like hanging out so talking isn’t an option.
Ray – Why not??
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You still haven’t told me why texting at this hour is wrong.
Me – Because you’re dating Alex and texting me that our time apart makes you see how much you love and care for me. You’re a douchbag.
Ray – I AM dating Alex but my telling you I care about you is not to be a douchebag. We dated for 4 1/2 months and I just want you to know that in spite of our breaking up, I still care about you as a person and hope we can be friends. But perhaps you’re right about it being inappropriate. Fine. I won’t bother you. Please take care.
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I want to apologize. The more I think about it, the more I can see you’re right about my being inappropriate. That’s not my intention.
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I’m done with Ray. Its not just a feeling I am having today and then tomorrow I am going to be his friend again. I can be hardheaded and followthrough with removing Ray from my life. I deserve better than someone trying to keep me around until he is ready. Fuck that shit. I cried a little on the drive home; partly because I mentally have given up on Ray and partly because I feel the person I knew had died. I was cursing his name and wishing he would die.
Sincerely,
The Writer
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I have been crying on and off all day. I miss Ray something fierce! Why does my heart hurt me?
hmmmm, concentrate on Len!
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smart move!
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about time mn.
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Well done for being strong. If only I had your courage.
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RYN: Glad I’m right! Jack is my brothers friend….I met him the other week and he kept flirting with me (like staring, grinning etc.)he’s single and I think he likes me, but just haven’t had the chance to see him since! :/ xxx
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i like ur display pic
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