Tenderness

Dear Diary,

Today I’d like to focus on the good side of Ryan.  He wears his heart on his sleeve most times.  He can get emotional at times, which happened last night.  We were talking, and he had had a few beers, and he started crying, saying I was the best thing that ever happened to him, and he’d always love me.  At first I felt weird about it, but I loved hearing it and wish I could be with him more than one day a week.  Last weekend, I think, was the first time I spent a full 24 hours with him, from Friday night to Saturday night.  I love holding him in my arms, especially if he’s nude on top of me.  He loves my lips, and he likes to kiss me a lot.  Of course, I wish his hair was shorter.  My favorite pic of him is with short brown hair.  Here’s the link, in case you’d like to see him:

http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=viewImage&friendID=59953956&albumID=2380492&imageID=37087368

We like some things, but sometimes I feel like we’re really opposite.  He likes Moby and Marilyn Manson and Madonna.  He’s into hair styling as well, which almost makes him sound like the stereotypical fag.  But he enjoys spending time with me, and I can’t wait to spend the holidays with him.  I’m taking him to Amish country when the leaves start changing colors, and late October we’re going to Cedar Points’ Halloweekends.  I’m planning on either going to a movie or doing put-put golf, since he’s never tried that before.  There’s so many things I want to do with him :o)  But it still bothers me, in the back of my mind, his smoking and drinking.  But I’m hoping he’ll cut down on both while he’s with me.  His cat Patches is cute, and sometimes cuddles in bed with us.  I’m surprised my mother hasn’t said anything yet.  Ryan’s got a few cats at the house, and my mother is allergic, but since she washes my clothes she hasn’t said anything about it yet.  Which is a good thing.

Oh, I don’t remember if I mentioned it or not before, but my brother is getting MARRIED!  I wasn’t sure if he ever would, but he is getting hitched next June.  So things are really changing for me in my life.  I’m so happy I met Ryan, and I might be a Best Man soon as well.  We’ll see, he hasn’t asked me yet.

Went to choir practice last night.  It’s fun for me every week to get into the holiday spirit even though Christmas isn’t for months.  Oh yeah, I need to start seriously getting stuff organized for my Christmas party this year, which is in early December.  Well, my lunch break is almost over.  Laterz.