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For me it will never add up.

Because merely thinking of you made me happy.

You were always smiling.  

I didn’t give it my all.  I took for granted that you would always be there. I regret that.

But if you had asked I would have shown you just how deep my love is.

But you didn’t.  You were there one day, gone the next.  

And when you leave you cut all ties. 

There is no "I am here if you need me."   No " I will see you later."

Just you leaving and letting me down in every way possible. 

And it will never add up. 

Because how could I have been so in love with someone who never loved me back?

How is it possible that one day you just stopped caring?

How could you tell me I am your soul mate and then just walk away?

I can’t add it up.

I guess I just can’t accept that you were just lying. 

Because I never believed in soul mates.  But with you I did.