Trust issues
I was planning to write something about how close I was to having everything crossed off my ‘to do’ list, before everything on it somehow multiplied. Or maybe something about how PMS rage feels.
God, I’m feeling so turned off by the prospect of being judged that I don’t really want to write anything about myself. And what’s the point of this then? Turn this into some kind of political blog where I post links to other people’s scholarly rants? Or I could turn it into some kind of day book, where I drone on endlessly about my trip to the shops. You know the sort…
4:15 Went shopping for shoes. Saleswoman insists that buying ill-fitting boots is "a good buy".
7:30 Ate dinner. Watched TV. Chatted inanely with friend on phone.
Tell you what, for today I’m just going to make inane comments on random things. Like, have you noticed how many TV action heroes are now named Jack? Jack from Lost, Jack Bauer from 24, Capt Jack Harkness from Torchwood. What’s with that?
Though it’s not only names that are being copied between series. It seems the characters are too. How about the "tough brother, gentle brother" pair? The OC, Supernatural and Prison Break.
I’ll get back on the horse some day soon, folks.
My opendiary is a bunch of nonsense spewed onto a page, and I feel no remorse. Neither should you, this is supposed to be for you, not your adoring public.
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i have been through the fear of judgment phase and it has crippled me in a literary/journal sense so much so that my diary was a bland, boring bunch of boring bland crud. now i don’t care what people think and say pretty much anything. there are still private entries, however, and that’s a good thing to do if you’re worried about being judged. that way you get it out on screen but you’re not worried what people may think. reader passwords are good too, if there are *some* people you trust with your inner-ness. personally i like you best when you are open and honest about what you’re going through.
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Don’t forget about Jack Sparrow!!! 🙂
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Hrm… “9:30 Posted this entry on Open Diary!!” Yeah don’t do that, because your diary is much better… Though if I might also babble for just a moment: I missed Ugly Betty last Sunday… that makes me sad 🙁 RYN: No one needs to be told that they’ve reached their limits, certainly not you, even if you feel that way. I can certainly sympathize with the feeling though…
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Just came across your diary & just wanted to advise that for your sake just write what’s on your mind and your heart anyway. Be brave & don’t worry about being judged. If u can’t say what u really feel in a diary where can you say it! We’re all human & we all have issues. I think you’ll find most are people supportive here anyway:) Take care! Nice diary.
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you are loved, regardless of what you write here. and hehe, jack sparrow popped into my head too, immediately.
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