Is the world allergic to me too?

I just finished watching a somewhat depressing movie about a woman with multiple chemical sensitivity.  It struck a little too close to home.  She almost passes out from a coughing fit after breathing the thick exhaust fumes from a truck.  She has allergic reactions to all the chemicals in her life… hairspray, a new couch, nail polish fumes, perming fluid.  Ends up in hospital after entering a building that was being fumigated.  And her doctor thinks there’s nothing physically wrong with her and that she’s insane. 

She ends up living on an ascetic health farm in the middle of nowhere, dragging around an oxygen tank, and just getting paler and sicker. 

I can’t seem to control my allergies anymore.  Just spending a few minutes outside gives me a huge histamine reaction and leaves me a wreck for the rest of the day.  It’s hard to describe the sensation.  It’s as though every little blood vessel were itchy.  Like my body is composed of a swarm of insects.  It’s died down now to a kind of fuzzy, buzzing, spongy sensation throughout my body.  Especially in my fingers.  My head gets so full of irritation that I can’t think straight, can’t even concentrate on a book, can’t do anything really.  Can’t hold a thought long enough to get something out of the fridge.  And my nose runs and runs of course. 

I don’t know what’s causing the allergic reaction.  Pollen, exhaust fumes, food sensitivities, fumes from the cupboards or furniture?  Any or all of the above, I don’t know.  It seems if it’s not allergies, it’s endo, and vice versa.  I’m getting sicker, there’s no doubt about it. 

Sometimes I feel angry about it.  If these are environmental and lifestyle illnesses, why am I so sick while others are healthy?  My life is so clean.  I don’t drink, smoke, or take drugs.  I eat a decent diet, with fruit and veg, mostly vegetarian with no red meat.  My oils are cold pressed; my milk is organic.  I use no makeup, no insecticides, and practically all my cleaning and skincare products are from the health food shop.  I exercise whenever I can.  What, what in heaven’s name am I doing wrong?