It hurts so much

    I dont know why but every time i stand up for less than 2 minutes, or dont have my feet elevated when im sitting, my feet and legs swol up so bad and get dark pink / purple. Thye also get so numd and a real bad tingley feeling. It hurts so much and its been doing this the whole weekend. I see the prenatal doctor on the first of march. Ill let him know what is going on. I think it has something thing to do with carrying two babies, and them putting so much pressure on my lower body.

    I told my mom about it and she said dont eat salt. Im not sure what that has to do with it, but i was looking at all my food, and all of it has salt in it. I got some frozen chicken and ground beef. I guess i could eat that. But its so plain, all the side dishes i have , all have salt in it. I dont see how i can avoid salt, like my mom told me too, i dont see it happening at all. So she tells me to eat pop corn, but um  doesnt pop corn have salt on it? any ways.

    I should be getting my ETS orders sometime this week, and should be out of the army by March 16. I cant wait to get out and be with my husband who is stationed at Ft.Stewart right now. It sucks being stationed here in hawaii and being that far away from my husband. He went to the field today and wont get out till March 6. So i wont be able to hear from him till then.And that hurts more than my legs. I love him so much.

     its hard being six months pregnant with twins and haveing to pack up a whole apartment by your self with no help.  And its hard. Its so lonely here. I get so depressed. Theres no one here to talk too. My friend has her husband, and i would feel bad, handing out with them all the time. Well there haveing some marriage problems and me in the mix of it would be kinda okward. Thsi place is so depressing, the only furniture i have is 2 lawn chairs and a bed room suite. But so much crap of my husbands, which he left behind. All i have is my cat. I shipped my dog Rascal to my parents, almost a month ago. I feel so alone, depressed. I keep wondering how in the hell am i gonna be able to care for two babies, when ive never inmy life growing up really like small kids. Im sure ill love them when they get here, but will i ever truly be a good mother.