Reprive (part three)

[major content from an IM with a friend aproximately 8:00pm Thursday. IM content modified and sanitized. Augmented with new narrative]

Talk about validation… God is really reaching out to me in the moment. He found a place where two people’s needs could be met together. I wasn’t taking an unfair advantage of the situation – rather, I was executing God’s will for both of us at the moment.

Parradoxx: In my graphic design program, I would go to my Monday/Wed class at 10:30am, put my stuff on my desk, pick up my assignment for the day, then go to the union, eat McDonalds and play a video game(s) for two hours.

Parradoxx: Then I would come back to class, do a little work, find out what I missed, and leave.

Parradoxx: I got a B in the class.

IMfriend: lol

IMfriend: a B is what? lol

IMfriend: we work percent wise.. not a b c wise

Parradoxx: The point is, as a junior, I recognized my own best learning patterns *laughing at B* (it doesn’t matter, point is, it wasnt 100%. 70% or below was failure) and used my class time at its most productive. I went to the union and developed my critical thinking and timing.

Parradoxx: I also ate. Eating was a better use of my late morning time than trying to work on projects.

Parradoxx: Instead, I worked on projects in the evening, when it was cooler, and I could think better, having been “energized” by the day.

The conversation continued for about another 45 minutes, with both of us sharing concerns and Biblical truth with each other. When I felt the momentum fading, I excused myself, shutdown my machine, and fled my office.

Now, I wasn’t feeling guilty about what I did, but was concerned about having missed the significant portion of the Bible study. *laughing* Obviously, I had forgotten just who was in charge of things….

When I arrived at Bible Study, I found that there were only 3 other people besides my host. As I entered, they were discussing where to go “cruise” to. The study lesson had been tabled til next week.

We all piled in our host’s SUV and went to see what will soon be her new house. Then we went to the park at our zoo and played on the play equipment. Sunset found us sitting on a multi-toy, talking quietly – getting to know each other.

As I drove home early that morning, I felt good. I felt my sadness and depression in the background – natural feelings not to be avoided or suppressed. But I was overwhelmed with a sense of friendship – even if with a group and not specific individuals – and with the Love of God bending the course of the evening to meet His will for me in a time of hurting.

I may be lonely without a buddy, but I am never alone. Amen.