long over due update

 
hey guys this update is long over due I haven’t wrote in forever. Well anyways I am working back where I use to work before I took off up north no interview necessary, I might feel bad when I leave again within the next 3 years back up north. But for now I have a job getting paid alright better than before I left, wonder sometimes if I didn’t leave if I would still be making minimum wage.
 
 
anyways my ex mike remember long time ago i sent him a messge about his gurls, one who he named after me. well he wrote back a month or 2 ago. bottom line is he apoligized on how he acted to me. my name sake is 3, he named her after me cause he couldn’t get my name out his head. Anyways her being 3 means he was still doing his baby mama during his relationship with me but watever don’t care anymore. then he going to have the nerve to add me as a friend which i’m not accepting.
 

Now to cl my future husband and his words father of my future kids/our kids. We are doing good I have over came the negativity, I love him and still don’t know what he look like, yess I told him I love him but he doesn’t believe me, he doesn’t think I know what I’m feeling completely. I guess that’s what I get for saying it first. He hasn’t said he love me but he did say i got his heart and i had him long time ago i just didn’t know it yet amongst other sweet words. He has said somethings that proves he is serious about us/me. I have wanted to say I love you to him again more than once but have to hold it back. He makes me wanna do better and be better. He is just a great guy and I don’t wanna be without him I know without a doubt he cares about me deeply as I do him. when I hear his voice I light up like a christmas tree I think about him daily, when I don’t talk to him I spend the day thinking about him and missing him, but I replay sweet things and convo in my head and smile that what helps me when we don’t get to talk. Yes I feel that way about I guy that I haven’t laid eyes on.