Moral Qualms

Now I feel bad. I have always said I didn’t want to be the kind of person who pushes my views on others, but I yelled at Jonas for sticking to his. What am I supposed to do? Thank him? That doesn’t seem right, but not thanking him doesn’t seem right either. This is a horrible mess.

I tried to talk to Ren, but he made sure to let me know that this was between me and Jonas, and to involve others was not the honorable thing to do. I heard what he meant: "Please don’t make me debate whether I think my friend or my brother is more right."

His weapon reminds me that he himself does not believe in killing. It is why his katana has such a long hilt. I’m sure he had not wanted this showdown with Captain Amazing to end like this, but he takes it with such serious un-disturbed understanding. I wonder if he ever considered Stoicism…

Anyway, I guess if I’m able to get off subject with my writing I’m a little better now. I did go to see Jonas today. I found him outside sitting in a chair watching the forest. As I approached I noticed that He was sitting in Jonas’ lap. Jonas was thoughtlessly scratching him behind the ears. I decided that letting that scene be was the best thing for me to do. I wonder if he feels any guilt? If he does, I wonder what he feels guilty about? Too many questions, and I’m not currently ready for answers. I haven’t been able to meditate much recently. It’s important to clear the mind of this stuff sometimes. I think I really need to do that.

Some people meditate under a waterfall, I meditate with a glass of water.