Down

Bad fucken day… Found out my pkg I’ve been waiting for in the mail- was stolen… Along with my mom’s because they were sent on the same day… I’m so FUCKING pissed!!!! I want all this bad shit to STOP happening to me!!!!   I’m so badly depressed today and canceled tonight with my bf- I don’t wanna hafta deal with his friends tonight feeling like this and make them miserable or seem like an absolute bitch.  I’m totally saddened and fucken pissed off about everything today.  I’m ready to chew off nebody’s head off giving the opportunity.  Im just gonna stay in my room all day and be miserable and continue having these crying fits. 

I finally told my mom last night about needing my brakes fixed- and she said she has absolutely no money to get them fixed for me- so no car for a long time!! WTF???  Wow… I’m just letting everything out right now- because noone in their right mind would wanna hear it personally.  I talked with my cousin on the phone today and I couldnt help but keep crying on the phone with her- and I just couldn’t deal with the convo nemore so I was just like- I gotta go and be miserable now… 

I had a late lunch because I was in bed all fucken day- just finished at like 2:45, but still ate good- I’m actually not all that hungry because I’m still sick, have my period, etc.  You know, the works?  lol I’m gonna look back on this entry or this moment in the future and just laugh- hopefully!  

Breakfast: Yogurt: 80cal 

Lunch: Rotisserie Chicken- 300cal, and Wheat Thins w/ Cheese- 180cal

After this I ended up over my friend Gil’s house and drank until I puked… lol But in doing so- I lost 1.5 pounds!!