August 19, 2005

Missing you

I’m not trying to be emo right now, but the truth is, I miss you guys more than you’d believe. I’m not really close with anyone here, (yet?) and it wears on me. I guess it’s perfectly normal, but I feel… lonely… amongst 27,000 undergraduates. The people are great here, and we are all having a fun time together, but it’s all a bunch of surface stuff. Nothing deeper than "let’s go play Halo". I’m having a hard time "fitting in", I suppose. Temptation is a great fiend. No, not friend… read more closely. I’m doing my best to stay in the Word. I’m doing my best to pray as much as possible, but that doesn’t mean temptation cannot become almost unbearable. Not so much the drinking aspect and such, I don’t think that’ll be much of a problem. But staying pure, in body, much less, in thought, has become, even over these past few days, increasingly difficult. Opportunities can present themselves, and it would only take me to merely raise a finger… And it’s hard to find a balance between getting to someone, especially a girl, and wondering if something else is going to happen… I donno, maybe you understand, maybe you don’t, and if you don’t, then don’t worry, you’ll find out soon enough.

Please pray for me. Sincere prayer can be a powerful thing.

Alright, well, I’m coming home Labor day, probably that last weekend in September (ONE ACTS), and then homecoming *crosses fingers*. I miss you guys. I miss being able to talk to you all, and just be there. You all should move to Mizzou. That’d be awesome. Alright, I probably better be going. I’m on my roommate’s compy and he’s downstairs in the lounge, but who knows when he’ll get done.

See ya!

hmmm…I wish I was there…I will be praying for you…I always am, but I am glad to have specifics…I understand that at the time of temptation…it is the hardest to ask for help…but please call me, even if i’m at school, u can call just to get ur mind off of there…leave a long voice mail until you forget the temptation in the first place…another thing that helps me, is to remeber…

even if ur all alone…Jesus is right there with you…don’t drag him through that crap…it makes me almost cry when I think of all teh stuff I forced him to watch…all the stuff I’ve donen with him right there….all teh while he was begging me to stop…it sometimes helps me…and I understand how hard it is to make friends…more so right after u have new amazing ones at home starting to form

and all the casual chatter feels so pointless and empty…its how I’ve felt with even some of my friends here…they don’t know me, and don’t wanna…so they never go deeper…all of us are still here for u…we will be ready to catch you if u fall…but know that God won’t let u go lonely there…he’s got some amazing guys and gals he’s just waiting to show you…it might just ake a little time..

have a great time…and keep on staying in the word…it will help to keep you on the right track…don’t worry, it’ll get better…I’m already counting down teh days until labor day…I miss ya…and hope you feel support from friends here…and eventually there…have an awesome weekend…and don’t miss me or her 🙂 too much…hope to see ya online later… -writer of way too long comments 😛

FailureByDe5ign

August 20, 2005

Sounds like mizzou is a temptation haven…invite me. 😉 Haha, juuuuuuuust kidding. Well, about it being because of the temptation, I’d really like to visit actually.

I completely understand, I’ve only been at Mizzou since Wed., but sometimes it seems so overwhelming and its like I have no one really to talk to or hang out with. And, as for the temptation I really understand, there’s so much that can get to you here. I’m here if you want to hang out. Andrea

that_confused_girl

August 27, 2005

YOU’RE DIARY IS GREAT, i just stumbled upon it, and it made my day.

I love Relient K