I can do a Three-Sixty!!!

Yes. I can do a 360 when it comes to friends. I started at 0, moved through the 1st Quadrant to pi/2. Can ya guess what happened there? Then I came around to pi. Yup, you guessed it!. Moving right through, we come up on 3pi/2. Yeah, I’m not quite back to 0, but I’d say I’m somewhere between 5pi/6 to 7pi/8. Almost there.

I shoulda known late bloomers never make it. College will hopefully cure that. Exactly what I didn’t want happen, is though. The only couple of friends I’m going to end up having by the time I leave for college are going to be the two people I know who are going to the same place as me. I don’t mean to complain, but isn’t that what a diary is all about? Somewhere to leave your thoughts.

I wish I could just do that. I wish I could leave my thoughts on this page, not having to ever return to them if I didn’t want to. Don’t you think I’d just let it all go if I could? Don’t you think I’d let all those thoughts get washed down the gutter in the rain if I could? But thoughts aren’t like that. You can’t just leave them on the side of the road in a cardboard box. You can’t just spray them with some Windex® and wipe them away. I can cover my thoughts and feelings over with dust though. Wait long enough, and maybe the dust will solidfy into a protective layer. That’s all any of what I feel or think is anymore: layers of dust to cover up sparkling, see-through glass.

Only one thought has been able to penetrate recent event. I’ll give you a hint: I’ve given up all hope on a few of my friendships. My thought is something someone told me. I know now that youi can never trust youthers. Period.