Conscience

The light within tells of forgotton dark,

which once possesed my lonely souls worry

and cast it, like line and sinker, outwards;

through my eyes, to reel in

men of misfortune.

They who seize upon my own

unholy brightness

capturing themselves in tanglesome nets

of a form complex, mostly unrequited

thinking it a good thing until they see

illuminated beyond compare

a dark demon moon.

In all probability they are right. But i cannot help but feel someone telling me to ‘lose my conscience’ is not quite the ticket. I mean i have a right to feel guilty, i dont like it, but it happens. I know crazy times call for crazy measures, and i have the feeling that enough is enough. I know i’m not making much sense, none of it even makes sense to me. But i have the feeling that the last entry was a line for me, a line i have crossed, some kind of invisible boundary. and im not sure what i’ll find on the other side.

xXx

Bingaling

May 14, 2006

🙂 here’s to finding out what lurks in those unknown boundaries?

LOST-CAUSE

May 16, 2006

you dont need it anyway. and that sucks, they wont give you anything till you get worse, well damn it wash it with alchol, that might help or make you not care. take care.

YOU GODDAMN MORONIC INBRED FOOLS! YOU HAVE DEMANDED THE OH-SO AMAZING SPIDER-MAN AND NOW I AM BLOODY BACK!!! A RAIN OF FROGS!!! A WOMAN WHO WEEPS BLOOD! I BEHELD A PALE RIDER AND HIS TOUCH WAS DEATH!!! I AM BACK!

Degenerate_04

May 22, 2006

hey sorry its been awhile. I hope your doing alright.

Yeah, except I don’t think you are Marla Singer. I’m sure you’d love to be her, but you can’t. You’re not that…..cheap. Cheap? Hmm. Plus, you’re ever so slightly too EMO!!!

Hey gem: Can I come see you? Like, in the next week or two?

Well, I meant meet up. In fact, I didnt say visit, I just said “see”. But if I could stay, could I? Im not asking if I can stay, Im just saying is it possible? Why, dont you want to see me again? *pouts*

Im living with my new girlfriend and I WOULD like you to meet her…perhaps we could come see you/vice versa?

othersideoftheclock

June 7, 2006

Ahm, no, near Winchester, but I dont live with her anymore, as youd know if you read my diary, though we are still going out. Her name is, as my diary says, Jasmine. Um. You up for me visiting then? I am at a loose end for a few weeks.

Sleepy-Eyed John

August 18, 2006

the last entry is too long 🙁