serious dislike

It’s just a case of how seriously your willing to take things, i guess. Sometimes, when im lost – or hiding – in this feeling i find myself more willing to laugh then normal. Which is  what makes it so rediculous. But i do take things too seriously. far too seriously. and as much as i instruct myself not to, i carry it on, unable to just fucking let go of some semi-important issue. Then i regret it later.

I cant help being matter of fact, blunt or disgusted sometimes. It just comes naturally and im not going to try and stop it.

Im not sure that i could even if i wanted to.

But i do want to. Because i find amongst certain circles it makes me enemies otherwise. Not emenies so much as people that just feel uncomfortable around me, or have a dislike for me.

Its easy done, i have dislike for a lot of people too i guess. Maybe i just dotn like it when they dont like me. Or maybe. Maybe one day i’ll learn not to care about that. Oh, im a terrible, self interested bastard arent i.

Dont answer that

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