Wrong?

I must have missed something somewhere because apparently I am doing something wrong. How do i know that? Because I’m fucking miserable. No, not just right now… but all the time.

I hate my job.
School is just stressful.
I hate money and everything to do with money.
I hate my shitty car that everyone makes fun of.
I love my mom, but I hate that I called her just to say ‘hi’ yesterday and it turned into a ‘i have to get off the phone with you or else im going to yell at you’ kind of thing.
I hate my boyfriend. I hate how he told me to move out last night… He was drunk but… I don’t think he would have pulled that out of no where. Especially because I slept in my car for 2 1/2 hours while he was in the bar last night. Long story short, I could have gone home but I was content with waiting for him in the car. Then I woke up and was cold and decided I needed to leave soon so I texted him to let him know. And then I texted him a total of 3 more times and 8 phones calls and he ‘ignored’ me. Well I thought he ignored me, he just didn’t hear me. I got mad and drove home at 1:30. He fucking walks in the door FIVE minutes later and then we start fighting.
I hate the cocky asshole I just talked to on the phone because our DirecTV bill was way too much and said that it was late and had to be paid by the 15th or they were going to shut our service off. It was an error, but the guy was kind of an asshole and he didnt speak very good english.
I hate D because… because I fucking love him. And I hate him. Sometimes I’m content and happy (I wouldn’t go that far)… I told him we should go out to dinner tonight. That I would pay. That he could pick. That isn’t going to fucking happen. Why? Cause we don’t do anything. No other reason.
If my stupid cat wasn’t being extra nice last night and this morning, I’d hate him too.
I hate that I have been hysterically sobbing for hours now and I don’t know why. I don’t know what else to do.

h.e.l.p m.e