Porn

So D’s sister and I spent the better half of the evening watching porn on a laptop, sitting on our front porch. It’s nice to have someone to look at all the dirty stuff with. Becky was over as well, but I think we scared her off with our strange dirtiness.

Next Saturday I get my new tattoo! Im really excited because it’s been about two years and I’ve been fiending… I don’t really have the money for one BUT… I really want it : So I win.

Not too much of anything happening. I always come here with the intent to write but I find myself having nothing to write about. My life is fairly boring.

Rocco came by and we BBQed some steaks earlier. D and I have found a love for marinated zuchini grilled which is usually my job to make. It tasted OVERLY salty and I had NO clue why… until D figured out that I used garlic salt instead of garlic powder. Damn those containers for looking the same. I ruined the squish. Yeah, I call it squish.

Last night Becky and I were playing cards next door with D’s sister, Jess, thier mom, Rick and Peggy (an aunt and uncle), Nancy and Andy (family friends) and Larry (another relative). We all just throw our change in a tupper ware and play with quarters and stuff. I lost eight bucks, but had a good time for the most part. I don’t really like being around intoxicated people when I am not in the same state myself.

But I was leaning back in my chair at one point and had my arm over the back of Becky’s chair… and of course I thought of you. Then at some other point I was rubbing her back in a friendly way and I thought of giving you a back rub. *sigh* I just can’t help myself. Little things make me think of you and I wonder how things could would be if… well, if things we different, I guess.

Just remember… I’m always thinking of you. I’m always here if you need me…

and i’ll be waiting if you want me.