I just knew…

The past two weeks I have had this dreaded feeling. I thought I was going mad sometimes. I couldn’t sleep properly and had this nagging in my mind.
I just KNEW someone was going to die.
Im not kidding. I told Brian a few times the past two weeks "Something really bad is going to happen, I just don’t know who or what". I was terrified. I just KNEW. Brian is the only one I talked to about it.

On Saturday night I was feeling totally overwhelmed with this feeling. I felt like there was an immense weight on me and I was so sad. I got into the shower and sat down and cried and cried and cried.
I prayed like that for what seemed like forever. I prayed to God that whatever was happening to please not let it be my family.
I told him how I couldn’t handle it again. I just bawled. I felt like I was begging for something I knew nothing of.

Turns out that that night in Ireland, my best friends dad died. He was a very good, close family friend. Our families have always been best friends.

I don’t know if that was what the feeling was about, but I’m feeling better now.

Sometimes being sensitive is too hard.

🙂