selfish sorrow

my kindness doesnt make me weak, it makes me vunerable, it makes me human. Ive ached for weeks and months, ran until my muscles were sore and felt like a lump. Im a person, not just something you can dump, we use to fist pump, we use to be friends, i use to not sit around and think about how it use to be. I wanna give this all up, run so far, so fast that i can leave this hurt behind. I wanna out run you off my mind. This beauty, like a thousand fields of flowers, swells up inside me and fills me with a feeling that you can only feel first hand, i wanna be your friend, not your man, there is no one for me, understand? All that i want walks away and all that i need i’ll never see. I just want to forget about you and me. I just want to live this life thats left for me. I just wanted you to be happy, if you’re happy then i can be okay with this pain that clutches my heart with icy talons… This heart too warm to be frozen, too hard for claws to tear. Take me far away from here. Ewd12