autumn breeze

if i never met you than i’d never know how much more my heart could love. and is this the zenith, is this the extent… i find myself thinking strange things, like, when you love someone so much they become a part of you… is that even possible? and if it is, should i want it to be so? no i never asked for this love to fill me, become my every waking moment… i can still hear your voice in my ears. you went so far away, and now you’re back, so beautiful, all i want to do is touch you… skin and heart. but i dare not. you don’t want that kind of love from me. only friendship. but when you’re standing there with nothing but a button down oxford on it’s hard to talk gossip, it’s hard to look away, it’s so hard that i got to stare up into the sky and wonder why all my love ends up like this. forbidden. they all talk about her, the people downtown, they say she’s this, they say she’s that, but only to her back. to her face you’d think they thought her queen… my dream come true, you have to know that they don’t love you. no they don’t love you like i love you. but then again i do believe that no one was ever meant to love like this… all i see is you now. in a crowd i sometimes think that you’re calling out to me… i turn to look and search the area for you, but then i remember that even if you were there you wouldn’t be calling out to me… i love her, i love her, i love her, and there isn’t any changing that, all i could do is pray that this love will rust and fade away.

eric w. desselle