It’s late.

I can’t sleep. …………. I watch a lot of TV and I get caught up in tv drama like Rookie Blue, Common Law and etc.. So I was telling my aunt how one of the show made me cry. And she say that I am lonely and depressed and I need to lose weight and find me a man. NOW WAIT! She is single too. But I stop and listen. Now she is right about my weight I’m 300 plus and I really need to lose weight but a MAN! I don’t want. First I don’t want to start hating on men and I know there are some good one out there but hell I have never met one.

Most men are out for one thing. SEX!!! I am 36 and you would think that the men my age are more older now and know that it’s more to a woman or a relationship than sex………….HELL NO! They are more stupid in my thirties.
 
When I was twenty they want sex but they worked for it. Now they think if they call you twice, you should want to give them some ass. No dinner. No movie. No walk in the park or nothing just ass. One guy had the nerve to tell me he was a "single father and worked full time. So all he had time for was a booty call." And made this statement on the second call to my house, so I hang up the phone. I feel like if he ain’t got time. I sure as hell don’t have time for bullshit.

So back to my aunt, I told her that I am blessed my kids are healthy, my mother is healthy, my sisters are healthy and my aunts are too. I have a roof over my head and the people I love, love me too.

Now as for a man I want one but God knows I don’t need one. Cause some men are more headache than they are worth. I have peace in my home. I’m not worry if he cheating, he going to beat me or my kids, is he lying,do he love me, do my kids like him or did he pay the bills. With all the stress a man brings I think sex is over rated.

True love? Well…I truly love me.