Two years since my late entry!

I been so depressed that I have close myself off from the world. I have been trying to forgive the past and move on with my life. But in so many ways I’m still hurt and I feel a little bit lost in this world. Like I have no one to connect to. My family is well and I know they love me but once again I feel like a stranger. I need to forgive myself and the people who have hurt me they are living their lives.

Kevin I have cut him out of my life completely. He has hurt me so bad that I still cry about it to this day. But the funny thing is I still miss him and want him in my life even as a friend. He has a girlfriend now and I really do want him to be happy but to see that I am not the one making him happy hurts, so it is best for me to stay away.

James is in prison, so I’m not getting any child support. His dumb ass was driving with out a licence and drink and drive. He went to jail on Feb. 16 and they give him a year. He as no tried to write his girls or get in contact with them in anyway. I do know where he is at and something I think about letting the girls write him a letter but I am so tired of try to help him have a relationship with his girls and he does not try.

Joe is still in Haiti and he email or facebooks Joseph at less once a week. He is trying to be a father. Well it late and I’m sleepily. I going to try to write more cause it may help me more to put my feeling on paper. muchlove!!!