Happy

A couple of friends and me went to a mutual friend’s house last night. I went there expecting nothing. I was kind of scared Heath would not be cool with me because I thought him and Mike were good friends. When that got brought up he said that he was grown and wasn’t getting into that bullshit, and him and Mike were barely friends.

This guy had I guess been kind of flirting with me, so some think, but I didn’t think he had been. And Heath asked me if me and him were going to hook up and I said I didn’t think so and that he hadn’t flirted with me. One truth is that he did say if front of me that he didn’t want a relationship.

So Heath started sitting next to me and flirting. After the guy that everyone had thought I was going to get with, left, Heath started to make out with me and such. And we talked about how we never expected it to happen, how we always thought the other one thought we weren’t attractive or wasn’t interested. And i told him to be "straight up" with me and tell me what he wanted. If it was a one time thing, fuck buddy material, or what. He said he wanted to be my boyfriend. So….now I’m dating Heath. 🙂

And the night went very well. I stayed the night with him. We talked about the Mike thing, he said he was removing him from his phone….this sounds super fast, but we even said we loved each other. We’ve known each other for six years though. People just always said he was a man whore so I was too afraid to do anything before. Turns out he’s been with not even half the amount of people as Mike, and Mike was one of the main ones saying Heath was a man-whore.

I admit I’m scared. I’m scared he’s playing me. I’m scared he just wanted to fuck me and he’ll toss me aside after a while, that it’s a joke between him and Mike, that he’s lied about the amount of sexual partners he’s been with. After Mike, I’m scared of anything guys say. But I’m going to try and trust this.