down to crawl

i dreamt last night, for the first time in months that i can actually remember.

i dreamt of elevators and marble and glass. and running.

i dreamt of running.

but i do not know if it was towards
or away.

i have a novel to read and critique, two short stories to write, four other critiques, and the first chapter of my novel to write. all by this sunday. god help me.

(a few days ago it was the 2 year anniversary of my nana’s death. the pain never goes away. neither does her smell.)

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March 12, 2006

I wanted to leave a comment on this, so you know I read your diary, but I can’t think of anything valuable to add, (except aren’t dreams funny little things?) so I’ll just leave it at that. x

March 13, 2006

I kind of wish I didn’t remember my dreams at all. They’re so beyond weird.I went and saw Nine Inch Nails last year and the fifth year anniversary of mine. I didn’t make the connection with the date until a few days before the show, which made me feel ever worse about it.It’s been five years and I can still barely talk about it. I can’t even talk about my dog without crying.

March 13, 2006

did you know “dreamt” is the only word in the english language ending with “amt”?apparently, anyway.if you can think of another let me know,i often ponder upon such asinine things as this *smile*.the pain never truly fades, does it?but the love doesn’t either *hug*.i hope you were running away from the dark and towards the world.all my love.

March 13, 2006

But the subject matters of the dream are quite adolescent.

March 13, 2006

I was beginning to think you had abandoned us here at OD. The first thing I thought of when I read about your dream was Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Glass elevators. Got to be careful where you park them! 😀 Always remember that your Nana is watching you from above and smiling down on you. The hurt will never go away, but neither will her love. Best of luck with your work load! xo

March 13, 2006

dreams are always interesting. i hope you figure out what it was about xxxx

March 14, 2006

Anniversaries I do not enjoy. I always dream, so it’s never anything special when I do, but moreso mysterious when I don’t.

March 14, 2006

i heart you ;;

March 14, 2006

Good luck w/ it all.As for the dream,let’s hope it was towardssomething.xo;

March 14, 2006

aw dear i’m sorry about your Nana. Oh, shit i pray for you and that H.W. I’ve also been hit hard with the budren of homework and ridiculous projects. uhh. i want summer! <3.

March 14, 2006

honestly, that work doesn’t sound so bad, unless the novel you have to read is shite.

March 15, 2006

congratulations on remembering your dreams. it makes for an interesting morning. good luck with all your writing : )

March 16, 2006

::hugs you tight:: xx

or maybe just running in place.

dreams are inspirational things… btw: do you have a myspace? nsi- psyche.

March 23, 2006

I only dream right before my life falls apart. I do hope that you run faster than anything that is chasing you.

March 26, 2006