dial tone.

January 8, 2006

lense memories.

– i have my hands wrapped around the photography folio of a dead boy.

i am turning plastic sleeves that have not been touched for over a year and a half. i feel like somehow i am invading his privacy. that these old prints were never meant to be seen after his eyes no longer could. but i am told that we will frame them and hang them on our walls. i do not mind. maybe it will keep his spirit happy. and alive.

– the new house is wonderful. we are almost unpacked. almost finished. we are buying furniture and bookcases and a washing machine and i feel like i belong here. when i open my eyes in the morning i do not wonder where i am. and i am able to wake next to him every morning, and neither one of us has to leave the other to go home, because we are home. and that is beautiful. i miss things about my old house, but that is no longer home. they are no longer housemates. some part of me will miss that. but most of me no longer needs them. and i know they no longer need me. especially not her.

– my muse is slowly returning to me. she is shy, quivering legs and withered tail. but she is coming. this is a place that i can write. i feel safe, and maybe my muse will too.

– i have quit smoking. and while i do not miss it completely, i miss the destructive beauty it brings me. i miss the way i used to photograph it. maybe i will use that as an excuse to have one every now and again. death for art’s sake.

– ‘dude, where’s my country’ by michael moore is an absolutely fabulous read. i recommend it to everyone.

– i feel like i am slowly becoming myself again. almost human. gills fading.

– dinner calls. and i do not have to worry about anyone else eating all of my food.

i begin.

January 9, 2006

i have missed you too.it has been ages.i’m glad that you’re enjoying your new home.i wish i had someone to wake up to every morning,however tangled my hair is and puffy my eyes are.take care,dear.

Luci

I can’t wait to ahve that.

yuki

waking up next to him every day is perfect, isn’t it?missed you, xxx

I capture the castle

i asked the boy if he’d like to live with meand he didn’t say yes for definite buthe said that he liked the ideai’m glad you are slowly becoming yourself againyou’re a beautiful person to bexo

El Mauricio

you should keep your gillsand live underwater every so oftenat least just sleep over

grey

I’m glad. (:

liebe.

oh *swoons* house-love is my favourite love.this means we must shop for lovely boygirlhouse things!congratulations dear, on this new home, new people and a new phase of your being.i’m so unbelievably happy to see your name in bold again.all my love.xo

I liked reading this.

stars of november

i am so glad that you’ve found home, a place where you truly belong and best of all have someone to share it with. its great that you are feeling more yourself! i might check that book out when i get the chance. *makes a little note* do take care and keep smiling.

itareio

I am glad you are doing well. This is good good news. I’ve missed you. <3 jo.

mr. goth glam

I read that awhile ago. It’s certainly amusing.

this is war

January 10, 2006

death for art’s sake.i love you.miss you terribly.i wish i could see your house.much love,

SpectaKula

Congrats, Kim. You sound so happy and content. It’s so lovely to finally read all this. All the best for you and him and the new house. I just know everything will be beautiful! Love you xoxo

moons of jupiter

i agree, ‘dude, where’s my country’ was fabulous. i am glad you are settling in well at your new place. i’m glad you wake up with a sense of belonging. and i am most pleased to hear that your muse is returning. mine is too, i think. it’s a great feeling, isn’t it? – exciting, almost electrical. be well, xo

you sound so happy and settled, i’m happy for you… hope you had a happy new year, i missed your notes 🙂 nsi- psyche.

electra

January 22, 2006

Waht I’d give to be living in a house where I could relax and not lose all my food to hungry-three-am theifs.It’s so nice to hear that you are contentand able to wake up with him each day. You lucky thing.<33