I hate me but I do love you

Hi , all

Please do not mind my title but it is the way I feel latly ,

everything was really starting to get better between my wife and I – we had a great couple of weeks with no fighting or anything  we were having a good time enjoying each others company and having fun like we used to all the time and then I went and fucked things up again.

I have a problem with low self esteem and anxiety the combination of these two things is causing me to be negative and making me jump to conclusions .

I talk to my wife about things and I end up making her feel like im accusing her of doing somthing bad when she’s not doing anything wrong and it hurts her so much and pushes her away emotionally.

I hope I can get help and stop jumping to conclusions before I totally drive her away because I love her with all my heart and I want to be with her as long as I live !!

mr o