just a bit of nothing

I have a bit of a crush on Ben Harper.

Yes.  I do.

It seems like I have a thing for Ben’s in general to be honest. I have not met a Ben I did not like. And in fact, I’ve been attracted to every single one of them. It’s a weird thing, but I’ve accepted it.

It’s 5:53 AM and I’m listing to VPR’s classical music broadcast. It’s a nice way to watch the dawn break into a sunrise. I love this time of day, when the sky is a deep bblue and all of the buildings and trees are balck outlines. I’ve attempted to paint this time of day many times, but I can never get the blue quick right, or the depth in the blackness. Maybe I should try an etching. In fact, I think I will.

I applied for three different jobs tonight. I feel like I’m qualified for all of them. I wish that jobs would post the benefits and payscale available— it would save a lot of time for everyone. I refuse to take a paycut. It’s not like I make a grand amount of money now, and I never will in this field. Again, this is something I’ve come to terms with and have decided that the job is worth more than the compensation. Does that make sense?

I’ve started an intensive art study program, spearheaded by myself. This month I’m exploring experimental drawing and the artists who create. So far I haven’t started, but I will tomorrow night. In fact I will devote my entire eight hours of work to research and whatnot. I miss academia.

But I don’t miss paying for. Screw that.

Today is the 16th of March. Interesting fact, March 6th marks the 65th day of the year. So today there are 290 days remaining. And it’s going to fly by I’m sure. Especially since I’ve been procrastinating the wedding planning. Oy.

hey! talk like a pirate day must be coming up? right? I hope I didn’t miss it.