Merry Christmas!
Well is seems like Christmas is literally just around the corner so that’s fun. It really doesn’t feel like Christmas this year. No one wishes anyone a Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, or any other seasonal greetings. I don’t really feel the warmth and happiness that I normally do. Even coming back here to Clifford the house feels cold and uninviting. No one really seems to be playing Christmas music anywhere and places where people do, it’s the same bloody songs all of the time- Rudoplh, Frosty, and anything to do with snow and cold. There’s nothing to do with Christmas. The songs about winter are winter carols…not Christmas Carols…so it baffles me as to why they stop playing them on Christmas Day…considering winter starts Dec 21 and ends March 20th….I dunno.
I guess I am just feeling a little lost this year. My parents have separated so I think that fuels this feeling. Before I knew I have Clifford to come back to, but since then, I have Clifford and Wasaga Beach, neither of which feel very much like ‘home’. Again with my search for a home. I have also lost my home base in Guelph, as we have moved out. And I am on a search for a new plave to live. I’m not too sure where yet. I have been considering many palces, so we will see where I end up. I have a transportation method booked to someplace for jan 4, so who knows what will come of that. I am remaining ambigiuous about it all because I don’t want to let anyone know where I am thinking yet….it’s kind of like a game for me haha…keeping everyone on their toes, if they actually cared haha.
Well, I guess I should start organising my stuff to be moved at some point. It’s already in boxes but I need to see ifI can cut back on the amount as in the future, when this house sells, my mom will probably store my stuff for me where ever she ends up.
Merry Christmas all!
PS. I heard a comedian talking yesterday and he said something about getting to heaven drunk and God asking him to recite the Apostles. The joke was funny…but it also made me wonder….does it really matter how much knowledge you amass over time about God and the people in the Bible, or is it more important to follow the teachings of Jesus, such as doing good, being nice, etc. It makes me wonder why people can recite pages and pages of Scripture from heart, but cannot go out and help in a soup kitchen or anything like that. Makes you wonder what the real priorities of Christianity, as I know it, are. . .