One step closer….

To finding God…

my whole life I have been searching for God… or that”s what I thought anyway. But I came to the realisation that… I never really SEARCHED for God… I just… sorta… sat around and waited for God to appear. I hang around with different people from different religions and sorta wanted them to show me the way to God. What I have been realising now is that that wasn’t really "searching for God"… it was nothing… it was mindless stupidity…

So as you know a lot of things happened to me this year esp. in terms of mental and spiritual development. I realised that everyone, including me, has the power to control our own thoughts. I seriously never knew that!!! Why couldn’t have I found this out yeeeears ago??? So anyway… due to all the things that happened I came across some amazing movies and books and… people… I discovered Deepak Chopra, Louise Hay and… at the moment my favourite… Wayne Dyer. And those people just made me realise that I am the master of my own Universe, that I can control my own thinking and create my own bliss…. now I am far from perfecting any of this…. but at least I have started to accept the truth and am starting to take responsibility for my life and my actions…. I am growing every day… as a person… a spiritual being… and it’s amazing…

Now…. i am finally "searching" for God…. I am actively finding out about God. What God is to me and how to find him for myself. It’s nothing to do with dogma or religion or anything…. it’s just finding balance and unity and LOVE. I am loving the process. Even though it’s not always easy but the challenges are put there for a reason… cos without challenges we wouldn’t be able to grow…

Food Diary:

Yesterday (Saturday):

Breakfast: Fruit salad with mixed seeds + two slices of whole wheat bread with liver pate (I’m still weird)

Lunch/Dinner: two slices of whole wheat bread with waffer thin turkey

Snacks: couple of pieces of chocolates and wine gums

Exercise: Jumping around during the football game 🙂 (4:0 WHOOOOHOOOOOOOOO)

Weight (this morning): 56.5 kg