Couple of things

ok so a couple of things to tell… first… I started working out. Me… yes… I know!!!!! I am doing about an hour with my Wii. Jogging and stepping mainly. It’s cool because you can watch TV/movies while doing it and don’t have to look at the screen. And it’s so rewarding to see the calories burnt and all. It’s quite motivational.

My new colleauge has started. Anne. Nice enough. Irish. But now get this right: My company had two excellent internal applicants but they didn’t get the job … Anne got it instead. She’s from outside the company. Which for the type of job i am doing is really not ideal but hey… if she’s a great candidate cool enough. But … she’s four months pregnant… I mean… WTF????? That means I’ll be on my own again in like 4 months time… just by the time she’s finally more or less trained up… fantastic….

And last but not least the most important bit… remember Amy? To give you a short summary as i you might not remember: We used to go out yeeeears ago in Germany. She was the love of my life…. I mean… seriously when she said *yes* I saw everything in pink and i felt like i am walking half a meter above the ground…. it exists people… I felt it… so anyway… to make a veeery long story short, we had a huge falling out and broke up. I then moved to Ireland in December 01 and she followed in January 02…. completely unconnected and unplanned… so we met up again there… actually dated again for a very short while… like a week or so… then I broke it off… no idea why… and regretted it, had another MASSIVE falling out, she met a guy, got pregnant… and I didn’t hear from her again… until earlier this year when she tried to contact me on a German networking site but to pick up messages there you had to pay. So I wasn’t bothered to do that. Then recently they lowered the price for three days and i was thinking to pay it but then i didn’t….. and then they extended the offer and I was like: Well obviously SOMEBODY wants me to sign up for this. So I picked up her message… she send me a song I used to love back in the day via youtube link and said it made her think of me… and again to make a long story short: We’re emaling now. It’s sorta odd…. cos I feel like she still sees me as the insecure little girl I was 8 years ago…. I am nothing like that girl anymore…. Well… it’s kinda nice to talk to her again. Well at the moment I feel more "talked at" rather than like I am talking "with her"… her last email was pretty heavy. Full of stuff about her ex and her kids and i felt like she was trying to squeeze 7 years into a one page email…. i was pretty overwhelmt and did my best to respond… so we’ll see what she’ll write back now. it’s all a bit surreal… but interesting….