Aaaand I am single again

And I am cool with it. I told Romuald today that I think it’s pretty obvious that this isn’t going anywhere. He agrees and sees it pretty much the same way I do. I mean we haven’t seen each other in over two weeks now and text each other less and less. I mean he’s a reeeeeeeeally nice person and I really like him and I know he feels the same way about me… but we are not in love. It just didn’t happen…. I guess we are still too different in important relevant ways that cannot, or should not, be overlooked. We have very similar plans and wishes for the future…….. but in different ways… so… I think if we would stay together it would be for the wrong reasons. If that makes sense. And yes I could stay with him and get married and have kids and all that jazz… but we wouldn’t be in love with each other… and I just do not want to be one of these people. And he deserves so much better as well. He deserves someone who loves him deeply and who he loves in return…. and that is not I 🙁 But he wants to stay friends and so do I… so lets see if that’s going to be possible. Would be nice.

But I feel good. I am back single and I have more energy than I had in the last few weeks. I guess because this load is off my shoulders now. Of course I am worried to not find anyone ever… but I have to say the thought is also less scary than ever… I guess I just know I can make it on my own and don’t need a man to support or validate me. I am happy on my own and if someday a man (or woman) comes along to make my life even happier… well that’s perfect… but if that doesn’t happen than that’s fine as well… I will be ok… 🙂

I am actually really in the mood for dating… oooooh… the next one will come for sure 🙂