I cannot SLEEP!

 3:50am…can’t sleep. I slept really good from about 11:45pm  (when Jon left for work) until about 30 min ago.  GRRRR i hate this.  I ran out of my Seroquel (which I take to help me sleep).  I really wish Jon was here to cuddle me back to bed.  Sadie is on the floor next to me, she is such a good dog…..unless she is unsupervised 🙂

This evening we were getting everything definite about our wedding.  Trying to set a date and make sure we choose the right wedding package.  I have been throwing dates at him for the past month and he always says "whenever you want, baby"  So I emailed the hawaiin company and asked if they had the date available. When they replied I emailed it Jpn for him to look over and he didn’t like the date and tried to talk me into another date.  So I said "FINE whatever, the date does’t matter"  and he gets soooo irritated soooo easy he kinda blew up in his cussing fit.   Like OMG its not a big deal,,,settle down partna!  There was more to it but  i shortened it up.  He gets irritated so easy.  But, I love him so much so Oh well, i guess. I wanted to have sex tonight, too,,,, but not after that tiff, ruined any sexual mood I had. 🙁 

I can’t wait for Kara to get home from her gmas. I get to missing her so bad.

College starts back up August 29.  I am kind of excited. I love to learn new things.  But, I always have that fear that I am going to do horrible.  I am taking Health, Ethics, Math, Adolescent Psych, and Counseling Theories.  I start school this summer. I took intro to psych and Computer systems and apps (which sucked),  i got A’s in both classes.  I am going to go full time this fall and work full time and still take care of Kara and the house work.  It’ll be hard but I want to get my BA in 4 years and hopefully go on for my masters.