i have a pillow aaron

i flipping hate Hate HATE sleeping alone…so i make a shape out of an extra blanket and pillows thats like….well its my pillow aaron. why does everyone think thats so weird. i love having my legs wrapped around something and my head apparently twisted at a weird angle. back off people!!!! soooo i also have the ebola virus…from taco bell. honestly i dont know why i eat there it makes me so sick. but maybe it wasnt really the food, it could have been the fact that i havent eaten anything except a brownie, 5 ritz crackers and 6 chicken nuggets in the past 2 and a half days. my stomach is revolting. or it could just be the ebola virus again. hahahaha soooo what else has been going on….ummm went for drinks with my baby momma last night. she’s got issues….but really who doesnt? i feel bad for her and there is nothing i can do to help except be there…and be switzerland for her!!!!! oh today i went to the bar after work cuz my cousin was working….omg it was ridiculous. well she calls me and tells me to come down because it’s SO slow. well apparently right after we spoke EVERYONE decided to grab a beer because when i got there it was packed!!! so i sit down at the middle of the bar with and empty stool on either side of me and seriously as soon as i sat down the next 2 people who walked in the door sat at those chairs….seriously it bugged me. im like really people i sat here because NOBODY was near me…you fucktards. well i got over being annoyed pretty quickly because these guys were cracking me up!!!! ya all guys…me and my cousin were the only 2 girls in the bar and she was working so it was pretty much like they all needed to talk to me cuz i have boobs. anyway this one guy kept grabbing a little drink umbrella and making me wear it in my hair i looked like a fruit loop i swear but like i cared they were making me giggle and i definately dont need to impress any of them. well these guys are so funny, they are all regulars, brian, adam, mike and jeremy were the ones i was sitting with and after i got over my annoyance of having to deal with them i had a great time!!! well except when jeremy was like doing his weird thing cuz he thinks i shouldnt have gotten back with aaron when we had our rough patch a while ago and i can tell he is uncomfortable around me but im sorry im so irresistable. i can’t help it!! anyway so then i had to leave cuz aaron was meeting me at my house (and i was very proud of myself i was there for almost 3 hours and only had 2 beers and 1 shot…even tho adam and jeremy both tried to buy me more beers) so i went and picked up the ebola tainted taco bell food because ive been craving it even tho i know it makes me so sick…the the hell was i thinking?!?! anyway so i meet him at my house and we listened to a bunch of music and he was making me laugh so hard. he gets sooooo excited over the littlest things and it just makes me smile because we share so much together and learn a lot from each other everytime we do something. there is sooooo much we both have to learn and its exciting being able to share those like revelation moments with each other!!!! i cant even explain what we did because we just layed in bed and rolled around and laughed and he just makes me forget anyone else is around. i feel like we’re the only 2 people in the world when i’m with him sometimes….*content sigh* ya so then we went for a drive….and had sex in the truck….again…we’re so gonna get busted soon because we have wayyy to much vehicular sex. really sexy vehicular sex tho! awwww then he dropped me off and i proposed marriage to him….again. we get engaged like once a week haha who knows if we every will get married or even stay together but he is the best thing for me right now and i treasure every second i do have him in my life!!!! awwwwwww he makes me all squishy inside!! and then i got all ready for bed and he texted when he got home to tell me he loves me and all that. he is so reliable when it comes to that kind of thing. i may not see him everyday and we’ve got our ups and downs just like everyone else but he will ALWAYS either call or text before bed and EVERY morning he texts me when he gets up. it’s the best alarm clock i’ve ever had!!!!! oh and not this weekend but the next weekend me and him have a date to go to the strip club and i can’t wait. i love it because i normally get wayyy more action than he does haha yay for boobies. ya and normally i end up showing mine too so he loves that whole situation. ok i think thats all i had to ramble about maybe…ummmmmmm ohhh ya i got another message from my ex husband the other day. he has had my extra set of car keys but i didnt want to ask him for them because i wasnt sure if he knew he had them and if he wanted to do something spiteful i wasnt gonna give him any chances! so he sent me a message on myspace telling me that he had my car keys and i could get them whenever i wanted them. it was really weird….but i heard that he’s been doing good the last 2 weeks and has stayed sober so that probably has something to do with it. i hope he can keep it up because no matter how happy i am that we’re divorced and my life is so much better…ya i did love him at one time…i mean we were married….i just think he deserves to be happy just like everyone else. even if he is a freak of the week. well anyway i love aaron and my pillow aaron is waiting for me so good night all!!!!!

you’re my one love
my one heart
my one life
for sure!!