surprise party

 so the other night I had a surprise party for my friend aka the girl that I feel like is my soul mate, well it went over amazing she had no idea it was coming, well I gave all her presents except for two of the more emotional things, well we go to her car after everyone else has left and I give those to her and she starts balling in my chest for about 2 hours, I felt kind of bad I made her cry, but I guess the feeling behind it felt kind of nice to me. ever since that moment her tone of voice has been kind of different with me, the only way I can describe it is like it’s almost like she’s in a dream, really soft voice, very pleasant, and always happy, I mean it just feels so amazing to have someone talk to me that way. she keeps texting me and calling me out of the blue just say she misses me too, which also feels amazing. I’m about 100% sure I’ve never honestly felt love for anyone until now. I honestly feel like if something happen and she wasn’t a part of my life any more it just be a hollow shell. I really don’t think I could handle that