Ellie

The last few weeks have been very interesting… Mainly because of one person in mind…
I’ve been seeing this girl I met at my friends party a bit.. and we seem to be getting along really well…
Well I guess things have been going great.. Or awsome as she would say hehe
As of last thursday the 28th We, well I guess you clould say we are together…Only thing that is stoping me from being ova the world right now, Is that it is a lil hard to see each other. Considering we both work alot.. And she works weekends.. mainly only having days off during the week.. While I am working.. hehe But so far we have been working around that pretty well…
God right now I wont to see her tho.. She really is amazing.. Not really like any other chick I have met… So really thats a good thing considering things have gone badly with every other chick I have met lol
Shes very easy going.. But I think I am starting to get the picture that she is sorta insurcure when it comes to relationships with anyone…
From what I know.. It seems that alot of people have let her down in the past… I dont want to let her down… She already means alot to me… I just hope she doesn’t let me down.. I am not really sure if I can take many more losses myself…
I got a feeling that she cares for me more then she lets on.. Maybe she slightly has troubles expressing herself… I guess time will tell… I sorta want to talk to her about this.. But I am not really sure how to tell her without it being so direct… Dont really want to be blame for scaring her off…
The more days that pass… the more I am coming attatched to her, I dont want to become to attached, cos I know in the past I have come very attached to some chciks, Sometyimes it works and they love a relationship like that,, but some peoples wouldn’t like that at all.. And at the moment I am not fully sure just how she would react… So for now tring to keep it low key to just how attachde I am becoming.. without being to far attached, and making it seem like I dont care at all..

She is so beautiful… She fell asleep on me late the other night… I couldn’t help myself but to try stay awake and just look at her face…

I know this seems crazy… But yeah that’s me I am crazy.. I’d move, to be closer to her… I know it’s a long shot.. things might not work out at all between us.. But just to be closer… 45min drive is a good distance… 10mins drive would be good… I just feel being closer to her. Would make things work out just that lil more easyer… If finding a job wasn’t so hard.. then I’d give it a shot…

I really do wonder just how she feels for me right now… Last time when we was talking, mind you it was in person and I so suck at talking in person but I gave it my best shot… She pretty much sucked as bad as I did, So al lthat has made it ahard to know just how she feels.. talking on the phone is a lil bit easyer… so if we end up talking tonight.. I’ll see what I can find out.. Hopfuly its not to late tonight.. considering that she finishes work at 10pm And by the time she gets home and all that its close to 11pm.. Neways I guess this is enough jibber for now.. So I’ll post… blah.