“Here’s a present to let you know I still exist”

Soooo lets see here… I have a lot of new stuff since I last wrote. I went on my senior trip and that… was interesting, I graduated, I had my open house, I went to college orientation and Nick and I fight like its nobodies buisness!

To start things off… New York… it was fun yet one of the most frustrating trips I’ve ever taken. I swear half our teachers had noooo idea what they were doing or they were jackasses. Quite a few of the women on the trip seemed to believe that this was their vacation instead of OUR senior trip… needless to say I was going to punch someone in the face. So as you can tell I didn’t have the best time. BUT I really did love new york. I would give anything to be able to go there by myself and just see it without a bunch of dumb chaperones prettending to know what they were doing. There was a lot of unecessary walking because most of them had NO sense of direction. I have a rather good sense of direction and after I see something once I remember it. For example one point after getting off the subway I knew if we walked in a straight line down a block and turned the corner our hotel would be right there… did anyone listen… NO! So we walked in a complete circle and walked an extra two freakin blocks. But it had its fun moments like… just getting to walk around times square. Another shitty thing… we were put on the wrong boat cruise and we were with a bunch of dirty dancing pre-teens. NOT FUN but it was a wonderful site seein experience. By far the suckiest part was the day it rained. We walked SOOOO freaking far out of our way to go to Wall Street stood there for two seconds and then broke up into seperate groups to go shopping. I wanted to Times Square but they wouldn’t let us so Em and I got stuck going with some other people and not getting to shop were we wanted. Em and I decided to get out of the rain and went into Trump Towers and got ice cream… As we are sitting there I start crying cause I’m so frustrated and tired and my feet hurt. It all worked out in the end but still. So in general I’m glad I went but I had my moments when I wished I hadn’t.

We got out of school on May 11th and then next week was our class night and graduation. It was fun… I mean I don’t really know what else to say… I got a couple of scholarships and I got my diploma…. I looked like an elephant too wearing that stupid gown!!! But hey its not really the most flattering thing on anyone I spose. Ummm other than that it was pretty much the normal graduation… guest speaker goes on too long and you get tired of sitting there. One thing was pretty sad though. Since this would have been Jameson’s senior year they gave his dad his diploma… it ws really sad cause we all know Jameson should have been there and his dad was crying…. So yeah thats that…

My open house was awesome. It was all pink and green and my cake was gorgeous. I got some pretty cool gifts and a bit of money. It was nice seeing my family and all but damn sometimes I had no idea what to say to some people. Like this one guy… NO idea who he was but supposedly he was like a father to my dad after my grandpa passed away. But yeah…. I also saw people that I hadn’t seen since I was a kid. I have yet to put the pictures away that were on my board and that was… almost a month ago So yes open house rocked.

Ummm orientation was last week and that was interesting. I love it up there! It is so beautiful and the international bridge between Michigan and Canada was RIGHT there. You can see it out some of the buildings windows along with the Soo Locks. I also found out I’m in honor’s college. I had no idea till I was up there that I even had that option. I don’t know if I really want to do it though… because to be in it I have to maintain a certain amount of honor’s courses and with nursing bein my major my classes are practically set in stone. SO I don’t know if I want to do it but my dad is pretty much dead set on me bein in there. So I’m not as scared about leaving either since it’s such a small campus. It is tiny and it isn’t overwelming to me like WMU was. I’m excited and nervous but I know I will do fine.

As for Nick and I… thats a whole other story. We pretty much fight constantly cause he is sooo jealous and I’m just not happy anymore. One minute we are joking and lovey and the next I want to claw out his eyes. I think its because he is ready to get married and have kids when I’m wanting to see other people before I settle down. He understands though. And now he is going into the navy at the end of the year so thats a new thing…. He knows its the best chance he has for himself. He will get college paid for once he is out and he will be able to have a good future for himself. As for me I’m going to college but we still want to be close and keep in touch. And maybe after we’ve both done some growing up we can be together again. But as for now… for the rest of the summer we want to try and make it work.

Now to present day… Nick and I are going to Manistee to stay at my grandma’s and then tomorrow we are going to his friend’s party… which will be OH SO awkward for me.

But hell I’m going just in case Nick gets drunk so I can drive him home. I know I’m so responsible. Also there is a bunch of fairs, flee markets and carnivals going on over in the Manistee area so we are going to those too. So that will be fun.

That was by far one of the longest entries I’ve ever done… I’m so proud of myself!